At the start of the year, I wrote this post because I thought it might be fun to focus on a word and make it my mantra for the year. The word I chose was relish. I really wanted to focus on relaxing and taking time to enjoy the fun things life has to offer rather than always working on checking things off my to-do list. Are you ready to hear how I've been doing?
The short answer is, terrible! I can't pretend like I've been doing a great job because I'd by lying. In all honesty, I don't think I have the ability to relax. Is that weird? Every time I sit down to TRY and enjoy some downtime I just think about all the things I should be doing and then get up and do them. It's a disease or something. I have good intentions to relax. I have good intentions to not let the dirty dishes bother me. I have good intentions to enjoy my time alone with Tommy once the kids are asleep. However, none of these things happen. I can't relax. Dirty dishes BUG ME and when Tommy and I finally have some alone time, I do the dishes, make lunches, start laundry, or clean up from the day. Then when I finally do sit down, I fall asleep.
Clearly, I need to strike a balance. But the truth is, I like the chaos. I'd rather be busy all day, working, chasing kids, driving from here to there, making lunches, planning our weekend than sitting like a bump on a log. Deep down though, I KNOW I need a break. I need to enjoy some downtime. I need to spend QT with Tommy and the boys. Even more so, I need to get it in my head and know that its OK to not be doing something every.single.second.of.the.day. I've learned that I'm really good at saying I need a break but I'm not really good at actually taking one. I have six more months to work this out and I'm going to make it a priority.
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Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Relish
New year. New start. Right?
Lately I've been doing a lot of thinking about "letting go" and just letting things BE. For those of you who know me (and for those of you who don't), you know this is going to be incredibly difficult for me. I am a planner. A "do-er" not a "sitter"...I can't sit still unless everything is done and in its place. I really want that to change though. I really want to be able to just take a break and enjoy the little things. I want to stop focusing on things that in the long run don't really matter. I read this post and it got me thinking about my word for 2012. If I had to choose one word to describe what I want to focus on for 2012 it would RELISH.
I want to enjoy my husband and kiddos and stop constantly trying to pick up after them. I want to play "Army guys" with Aidan instead of insisting on cleaning the kitchen instead. I want to snuggle with Gray because before I know it he will be crawling and walking. I fear if I don't cherish these moments now, they will be gone and I will never be able to get them back. I want to take pleasure in just sitting and reading a book without constantly thinking about my to-do list. I want to appreciate the moments I'm able to get away with friends instead of thinking about what I could be doing at home. I want to RELISH in all the moments of my life.
What is your word for 2012?
Lately I've been doing a lot of thinking about "letting go" and just letting things BE. For those of you who know me (and for those of you who don't), you know this is going to be incredibly difficult for me. I am a planner. A "do-er" not a "sitter"...I can't sit still unless everything is done and in its place. I really want that to change though. I really want to be able to just take a break and enjoy the little things. I want to stop focusing on things that in the long run don't really matter. I read this post and it got me thinking about my word for 2012. If I had to choose one word to describe what I want to focus on for 2012 it would RELISH.
I want to enjoy my husband and kiddos and stop constantly trying to pick up after them. I want to play "Army guys" with Aidan instead of insisting on cleaning the kitchen instead. I want to snuggle with Gray because before I know it he will be crawling and walking. I fear if I don't cherish these moments now, they will be gone and I will never be able to get them back. I want to take pleasure in just sitting and reading a book without constantly thinking about my to-do list. I want to appreciate the moments I'm able to get away with friends instead of thinking about what I could be doing at home. I want to RELISH in all the moments of my life.
What is your word for 2012?
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